It is social anxiety if you just don't LIKE them?

[xyzzysqrl]

We went out for food earlier and my mood broke a little. I am NOT comfortable, really, in loud crowded places. I keep twitching and jumping and feeling sick and tearful after. Unfortunately there'll be a repeat performance, since I'm hopefully going out to pick up a Dragon Quest map at Best Buy today. (With any luck.) I hope I don't freak out or anything. That's shameful.

Also on this hot, dry morning, someone dumped a cigarette in the mulch outside our window.

*type type type*
*look up*
*plume of smoke*

That's -jarring-, right there. (Went out with a cup of water and put it out.)

Feeling talkative and twitchy as hell lately. I apologize if I'm spamming the crap out of Livejournal. Think of it as the flip side of the times I spend two weeks dead silent.

Comments

[vulpisfoxfire.livejournal.com]

Ouch. Social anxiety sucks. I dislike crowds myself (mainly because they're annoyingly noisy and filled with stupid people who apparently seem to exist solely for the purpose of being *obstacles*), and my brother is somewhere between us on the scale, though leaning more towards your end of things (usually can deal with it, but is easy to set off if problems start happening).

And as for your potential arson situation, ouch. Good thing you caught it before it actually became a hazard. Part of the reason I can't stand smoking--they throw their cigarette butts anywhere they feel like it, it seems. :-(

[michellesolomon.livejournal.com]

If you spend a couple weeks without blogging? That's okay. Although I've realized myself that the more I blog, the more likely I thinking, "ZOMG if I don't blog something soon THEY'LL ALL NOTICE AND AIEEE."

Re your title: I don't know if this happens to other people, but I noticed that when I first joined the fandom I talked to everyone. And then I got emotionally drained from everyone telling me their problems in horrendously great detail (not friends - everyone else), so I pulled back a lot. And now I notice that there are a handful of people in the fandom that I just actively very strongly dislike - folks that years ago I woulda just been all, "Mwah, whatever." It's a weird thing; I don't know if it's social anxiety or just these two or three particular people that have caused me to have no more tolerance for horking all conversation all the time.

Sigh. Now you've inadvertently gotten me all philosophical.

[ff00ff.livejournal.com]

They say that regular exposure to the causes of your anxiety is the best treatment for social anxiety, and you've got a support wolf if you need him. I wish you luck dealing with these feelings.