The Zen Zone.
Oct. 19th, 2008 05:34 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
xyzzysqrlA few things came to mind as I talked with a friend, and I feel a weird urge to blurt them out here.
The new PC is set to ship around the 28th or so. I'm very excited. I'm excited because my current machine is dying, and because I will have a new PC, and so will my boyfriend, and that is awesome. I get excited a lot about very material things, physical things or things I can own and collect. That's... about it, though.
If you take away the excitement over material goods, my life boils down to the old zen statement of "When I am hungry, I eat. When I am tired, I sleep." Time's not really a meaningful concept, I can be awake at any hour of the day or night. I drift, I eat, I sleep, I play games, I interact with people, I occasionally leave the apartment.
It's nice. It's almost an enlightened state, except I know it isn't -actually- one because if you're worrying about whether or not you're in a state of enlightenment, it's "no". Still... it's comfortable.
I know this isn't how most people do things. They get terribly upset or happy or annoyed with political things, or with economic things, or... that sort of business.
I sometimes wonder which way I ought to be going. If I ought to try to let go of MORE worldly passions, or fewer of them.
The new PC is set to ship around the 28th or so. I'm very excited. I'm excited because my current machine is dying, and because I will have a new PC, and so will my boyfriend, and that is awesome. I get excited a lot about very material things, physical things or things I can own and collect. That's... about it, though.
If you take away the excitement over material goods, my life boils down to the old zen statement of "When I am hungry, I eat. When I am tired, I sleep." Time's not really a meaningful concept, I can be awake at any hour of the day or night. I drift, I eat, I sleep, I play games, I interact with people, I occasionally leave the apartment.
It's nice. It's almost an enlightened state, except I know it isn't -actually- one because if you're worrying about whether or not you're in a state of enlightenment, it's "no". Still... it's comfortable.
I know this isn't how most people do things. They get terribly upset or happy or annoyed with political things, or with economic things, or... that sort of business.
I sometimes wonder which way I ought to be going. If I ought to try to let go of MORE worldly passions, or fewer of them.
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Date: 2008-10-19 07:00 pm (UTC)I also like to draw, and I haven't been able to, not at all since my new work began. I've purchased a few things, thanks to money from work, that I've wanted for years and years and tortured myself over. But now I cant draw. I have no time and I don't think that all things considered it's a fair tradeoff. I have obligations I must fulfill financially. Once they are met I think I'll go part time, or just quit. I want to make things I like again.
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Date: 2008-10-19 08:14 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2008-10-20 10:49 am (UTC)On the other hand, the "live when you want to" system is nice, until The Requisite Job says you'll exist during the day and LIKE it. Oh well, says I!