Life As We Know It Is About To Change
Dec. 26th, 2005 08:23 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
xyzzysqrlSo here's the explanation for that post a couple of days back.
Essentially, a lot of crap hit at once, as I implied. My mother, as I mentioned, recently got out of the hospital with a stent in her heart. My father, meanwhile, was in a work-related accident and now needs surgery on his neck. Unfortunately, he keeps failing the heart stress tests and he needs to pass them before the doctor is comfortable operating, so it'll be some time and he'll be in pain until he can pass that.
Meanwhile, we'll be losing our apartment in about a month. I don't want to get into why, but there's a couple of reasons, not the least of which is that the landlord simply does not want to renew our lease. So we're going to be looking quickly but calmly for a place to live. Being uprooted is starting to be less of a shock over time. I guess walking out on my parents all that time ago numbed me a little, I can pull up and leave without so much of a shock anymore.
Also, I was off my medication when this hit. So I slid into a state which I can only describe as 'morose'. Luckily, I'm over that now. I'm feeling a lot calmer and a lot better and I think I can get a few things done.
...and so this is Christmas. This year I got a small stack of games from the boyfriend, my parents have promised to send me some money over my protests (medical bills < me) and supposedly his parents have something for us or something, I don't know. I'm not really loot-hunting this year, there'll be other years for that. Right now I'm just enjoying life for the moment instead of fretting about what's to come later.
(Just because I am not actively loot hunting does not mean I am, y'know, -dead-. For the record, if any of you want to give me a paid LJ account, or an AllofMP3.com gift certificate, or if there's something else you want to run by me, feel free. I am open to getting stuff. Just not big stuff.)
Anyway. You'd think with all of the junk going on, I'd be more depressed, but a weird thing happened. I seem to have just... gone through depression and out the other side. Yeah, the medication is helping, but... at this point, why -should- I be down? I've lived through worse. We'll make it through this too.
Part of that is your mass support, folks. There's been a number of you that I've kind of taken refuge and comfort from. If I've been a bother or a burden, I apologize, but I also thank you for keeping me from falling apart. As always, you're the best bunch of friends and the single best support network a fellow could ask for, and I'm glad to be a part of your lives.
I just wanted to let everybody know where I stand for now. It's rocky ground I'm on, but home is just over -that- mountain. Really, I swear this time. Have I ever lied to you?
(Also, I lose a cosmic balance of 72 points for a Homeward Bound reference.)
Essentially, a lot of crap hit at once, as I implied. My mother, as I mentioned, recently got out of the hospital with a stent in her heart. My father, meanwhile, was in a work-related accident and now needs surgery on his neck. Unfortunately, he keeps failing the heart stress tests and he needs to pass them before the doctor is comfortable operating, so it'll be some time and he'll be in pain until he can pass that.
Meanwhile, we'll be losing our apartment in about a month. I don't want to get into why, but there's a couple of reasons, not the least of which is that the landlord simply does not want to renew our lease. So we're going to be looking quickly but calmly for a place to live. Being uprooted is starting to be less of a shock over time. I guess walking out on my parents all that time ago numbed me a little, I can pull up and leave without so much of a shock anymore.
Also, I was off my medication when this hit. So I slid into a state which I can only describe as 'morose'. Luckily, I'm over that now. I'm feeling a lot calmer and a lot better and I think I can get a few things done.
...and so this is Christmas. This year I got a small stack of games from the boyfriend, my parents have promised to send me some money over my protests (medical bills < me) and supposedly his parents have something for us or something, I don't know. I'm not really loot-hunting this year, there'll be other years for that. Right now I'm just enjoying life for the moment instead of fretting about what's to come later.
(Just because I am not actively loot hunting does not mean I am, y'know, -dead-. For the record, if any of you want to give me a paid LJ account, or an AllofMP3.com gift certificate, or if there's something else you want to run by me, feel free. I am open to getting stuff. Just not big stuff.)
Anyway. You'd think with all of the junk going on, I'd be more depressed, but a weird thing happened. I seem to have just... gone through depression and out the other side. Yeah, the medication is helping, but... at this point, why -should- I be down? I've lived through worse. We'll make it through this too.
Part of that is your mass support, folks. There's been a number of you that I've kind of taken refuge and comfort from. If I've been a bother or a burden, I apologize, but I also thank you for keeping me from falling apart. As always, you're the best bunch of friends and the single best support network a fellow could ask for, and I'm glad to be a part of your lives.
I just wanted to let everybody know where I stand for now. It's rocky ground I'm on, but home is just over -that- mountain. Really, I swear this time. Have I ever lied to you?
(Also, I lose a cosmic balance of 72 points for a Homeward Bound reference.)
