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Dec. 10th, 2009 04:50 amLately I've been idly skimming a lot of friends-of-friends journals, and just randomly wandering around Livejournal. And it occurs to me that I don't really know those people. This was a shock, as I'm sure you can imagine.
I'm sorry, I'll start again.
My mind turned to all those people who wander into my journal and provoke the reaction of "Sorry, do I know you?" from me. Obviously I don't. Or... I wouldn't ask. But I like knowing people a little bit. I like to read about people I don't know and try to relate to them. Because sometimes I really, really do. Maybe that's what they're doing, I don't know.
I thought, then, that for my own protection of sorts I should maybe write a little about myself as well. A sort of brief introduction.
If you have any questions, please ask them here.
My name's Gordy Wheeler. I have to use a calculator to work out how old I am, because I stopped paying attention to my physical age before I was a teenager. (Apparently I am 27.) Mentally I fluctuate around a bit. Usually I am between 8 and 15 mentally, which puts me basically in the range for toy commercials, video games, and all the good cartoons. Which, not coincidentally, make up a lot of my leisure time. What isn't spent with those is spent reading.
I learned to read very young, and I learned to read and write by playing games like Zork, Pyramid, Bedlam, and such on a TRS-80. Text adventures that people have long forgotten because they weren't very famous and you had to type them in from a magazine. This is part of why "Xyzzy" is in my username. I'm still fond of video games, and 3D is very pretty and all, but I'm always most at home with big chunky pixels or a blinking command-line, an eight-item limited inventory and a set of verbs to work with.
That's 'Xyzzy'. 'Sqrl' is from 'Squirrel'. That's because of the furry fandom, which helped me get my self esteem back under me after it was crushed by the public school system. Back then "furry" to me meant light online roleplay in an IRC channel while discussing cartoons and computers and nerdy things. For other people, it was about escapism or spirituality or porn or fun or getting in touch with who they thought they really were inside. These were all also valid, as far as I'm concerned. I'm not entirely sure what it means anymore, and really an entirely different generation has made it theirs instead, but I hang onto the title anyhow. I haven't been back to IRC in years.
I'm largely a failure at a lot of things. I am a failed writer, for example. I had a stint as a game reviewer which ended in a nervous breakdown. I've worked a fair number of jobs and not really progressed well at any of them. Now I live in a small apartment with my boyfriend, who I keep entertained and happy. I've found, in a way, a job as "natural alternative to antidepressants". That's about as far as I care to discuss my financial life.
I'm clinically depressive myself, making the next-to-last line there rather ironic. This mostly means I have periods of my life where I get very sad and hateful and say a lot of things targetted to hurt people, including myself. Lately I've tried to get better about carefully removing myself from Situations when this happens. I don't always make it. I end up apologizing a fair bit to people I genuinely like.
I cannot just "fix" being depressed. I cannot "just cheer up" and "get past it". I know that my life is very good and I "have no reason" to be down. I will punch you directly in the goddamn face if I hear this suggested. It is really not that simple. I am, at heart, a happy person who really wants other people to be happy too. I just have these moments.
My favorite food is General Tso's Chicken. I am aware it is not "real" chinese food. In general I like foods that are spicy, sour, or salty more than I like sweets or unami.
My favorite color is pale green.
My favorite bands are Barenaked Ladies, They Might Be Giants, and Bowling for Soup.
I like anime a lot. I like american cartoons a lot. I don't see a need to distinguish one as better than the other.
I enjoy a lot of things that are objectively "bad". I don't see a contridiction there.
I don't like politics, religion, or economics. I won't discuss them with anyone.
I do have strong opinions about video games. I try not to be insulting with this, but it's my single most strongly opinionated subject. I can really rave and rant and bitch about this, and I'm kinda sorry, but kind of not. I'm mild enough in most ways that this is one place I feel I can indulge myself.
I also like explosions.
I'm sorry, I'll start again.
My mind turned to all those people who wander into my journal and provoke the reaction of "Sorry, do I know you?" from me. Obviously I don't. Or... I wouldn't ask. But I like knowing people a little bit. I like to read about people I don't know and try to relate to them. Because sometimes I really, really do. Maybe that's what they're doing, I don't know.
I thought, then, that for my own protection of sorts I should maybe write a little about myself as well. A sort of brief introduction.
If you have any questions, please ask them here.
My name's Gordy Wheeler. I have to use a calculator to work out how old I am, because I stopped paying attention to my physical age before I was a teenager. (Apparently I am 27.) Mentally I fluctuate around a bit. Usually I am between 8 and 15 mentally, which puts me basically in the range for toy commercials, video games, and all the good cartoons. Which, not coincidentally, make up a lot of my leisure time. What isn't spent with those is spent reading.
I learned to read very young, and I learned to read and write by playing games like Zork, Pyramid, Bedlam, and such on a TRS-80. Text adventures that people have long forgotten because they weren't very famous and you had to type them in from a magazine. This is part of why "Xyzzy" is in my username. I'm still fond of video games, and 3D is very pretty and all, but I'm always most at home with big chunky pixels or a blinking command-line, an eight-item limited inventory and a set of verbs to work with.
That's 'Xyzzy'. 'Sqrl' is from 'Squirrel'. That's because of the furry fandom, which helped me get my self esteem back under me after it was crushed by the public school system. Back then "furry" to me meant light online roleplay in an IRC channel while discussing cartoons and computers and nerdy things. For other people, it was about escapism or spirituality or porn or fun or getting in touch with who they thought they really were inside. These were all also valid, as far as I'm concerned. I'm not entirely sure what it means anymore, and really an entirely different generation has made it theirs instead, but I hang onto the title anyhow. I haven't been back to IRC in years.
I'm largely a failure at a lot of things. I am a failed writer, for example. I had a stint as a game reviewer which ended in a nervous breakdown. I've worked a fair number of jobs and not really progressed well at any of them. Now I live in a small apartment with my boyfriend, who I keep entertained and happy. I've found, in a way, a job as "natural alternative to antidepressants". That's about as far as I care to discuss my financial life.
I'm clinically depressive myself, making the next-to-last line there rather ironic. This mostly means I have periods of my life where I get very sad and hateful and say a lot of things targetted to hurt people, including myself. Lately I've tried to get better about carefully removing myself from Situations when this happens. I don't always make it. I end up apologizing a fair bit to people I genuinely like.
I cannot just "fix" being depressed. I cannot "just cheer up" and "get past it". I know that my life is very good and I "have no reason" to be down. I will punch you directly in the goddamn face if I hear this suggested. It is really not that simple. I am, at heart, a happy person who really wants other people to be happy too. I just have these moments.
My favorite food is General Tso's Chicken. I am aware it is not "real" chinese food. In general I like foods that are spicy, sour, or salty more than I like sweets or unami.
My favorite color is pale green.
My favorite bands are Barenaked Ladies, They Might Be Giants, and Bowling for Soup.
I like anime a lot. I like american cartoons a lot. I don't see a need to distinguish one as better than the other.
I enjoy a lot of things that are objectively "bad". I don't see a contridiction there.
I don't like politics, religion, or economics. I won't discuss them with anyone.
I do have strong opinions about video games. I try not to be insulting with this, but it's my single most strongly opinionated subject. I can really rave and rant and bitch about this, and I'm kinda sorry, but kind of not. I'm mild enough in most ways that this is one place I feel I can indulge myself.
I also like explosions.
